yes it's me and I'm actually updating. Imagine that! Haha...bet you thought I wasn't using this thing anymore or something. No I'm still here and still keeping up with everyone else's life but my own :).
The last time I updated I was graduating. Well...I did it. I graduated from college. It felt pretty great, but weird too. Now, here I am in Shreveport, LA, living it up in physical therapy school. Y'all, I never knew that school could be so hard yet SO FUN at the same time. yeah, I'm cheesy, but I don't care. i love it. I am learning so much and yeah even though everyday when I get back from school my head feels like it's going to explode, it has really been such a good thing.
My apartment is pretty cool....i'm including some pics but it looks a bit different and better now b/c i have put stuff on the walls...it feels more like home and stuff.
( here are some pics from my apartment:Collapse )
Let's see..what else does my life consist of? well, nothing really. My routine is pretty much the same...wake up at 5:30-6:30 every morning, take a shower, take Shadow out (he's like my kid, seriously), eat breakfast, maybe study, and leave my apartment by 7:15. It takes me about 7 minutes to get to campus (the hospital) and i park and take the shuttle bus from the lot to the hospital, and get in class about 15 minutes before it starts at 8. First I have human physiology every morning. That lasts from 8-8:50, and then every day of the week except one, we have human anatomy lecture from 9-10, and then from 10-12 we go into the gross anatomy lab and dissect our cadaver. yup...dead bodies. it's so awesome though. i am learning so much and it's so interesting. one day of the week in anatomy we have a "study day" where we just go in the lab and study our asses off, learning every muscle, artery, vein, nerve, cavity, etc. that we might possibly have to know for the test. they throw so much information at us in one day that we really need more than one study day, but hey, what can you do. some days that'll be it for us and i go eat lunch either at school with everyone or i come home and usually take a nap while trying to study. other days we have class starting at 1 and lasting anywhere from 2:30-4. I either have medical ethics or functional anatomy. we also have to take a medical terminology class, but all we do is learn words on our own and take the tests. so yeah...pretty much my life is the same everyday, and when i come home from class, i just study or fall asleep and always always play with shadow. some days i'll get lucky and get a chance to watch t.v. during the weekends i just kinda relax, study, usually end up leaving my apartment at some point in time so that i don't feel like a hermit.yesterday i went to bed bath and beyond and got some last little things to make my apartment complete, and then i went to walmart to get some more groceries. i went to chili's last night and had a drink with my good friend kristen. the night before we went out to taco mania and had a margarita with some other PT students, and then went to a bar and played pool. i still haven't really "gone out" with all of them yet, but I think not this weekend but the next we will all definitely be doing that b/c after an anatomy test, it's always time to celebrate.
as far as people, i've definitely met a lot of awesome ones. i went to elementary school at lasalle in baton rouge with this girl kristen, and i saw her name on the list of people that were going to be in my class. the second day of school, i went up and asked her if i could work in her anatomy dissection group, and ever since then we have been so close. we study for every test together and hang out all the time. i know that she is definitely going to be one of my best friends. it's just awesome because we connect so well together....like there's never that awkward silence thing with us. and we can just talk and open up to each other about anything, even stupid stuff, and it's just really cool. i totally had the wrong idea about her b/c i know some of the people she used to be friends with a while ago and was worried she was going to be this totally fake person, but i was so wrong and i am so glad. so hopefully that continues to go well. she even asked me to move in with her b/c her parents bought a condo in bossier city and it's a 2 bedroom and right now she's living in it all by herself. but we'll see. i'm worried i won't like not being able to be on my own so i'll have to see how that goes. i have a while to think about it though since i signed a lease here and stuff. i've met some other really cool people too. we hang out with this guy josh in our class and he's a blast, and so is pretty much everybody else. there's still a handful of people i haven't gotten to know too well, but for the most part we all get along really well. we also interact a lot with the occupational therapy, cardiopulmonary science, and physician's assistant students so that's cool. in our PT class, there's 23 girls and only 7 guys. pretty weird but it's okay. i've also met a bunch of really cool med student guys that help us out in the lab as TA's. so that's super fun.
i don't know...i'm having a blast up here and feeling a lot better about everything than i thoght i would. i really thought i would always be crying and always be lonely and sad, but it hasn't been that way. i mean yeah sometimes i do get REALLY down about missing home and missing certain people, and it's been really hard in some situations feeling like i'm totally out of the loop and out of that life i had, and out of so many people's worlds now. sometimes i feel like i don't even matter to those old friends i used to have, and that's really hard to face. some things that i've heard have happened have just really blown my mind and sometimes i feel like it's just a big slap in the face, about a lot of things that i've done and that have happened to me in life. i dunno. sometimes i hear about things and just get so upset but i have to realize that i guess i'm not part of that world anymore. who knows. but i guess life changes and throws you some curve balls and you just have to keep swinging. for the most part, i'm okay. i'm trying my best to just relax and learn as much as i can, both in school and in life. i'm trying to keep my relationships from BR, but also make a bunch of great new ones here, hopefully the kind that i know will stick. lots of people have been so wonderful and have kept me sane and i'm so thankful for that. hopefully things will keep looking up. i do miss everyone that i don't talk to anymore, and i'm sorry if i'm bad about writing or calling or any thing like that. i really am ALWAYS studying or doing SOMETHING and it's so hard sometimes to just find time to relax and get a second to just chit chat. so i'm sorry if u feel like i'm neglecting. but just remember that if you DO call me, i do find time to pull away from the books and catch up b/c even though i might get so wrapped up in it and i feel like i can't take a second, i always do if someone calls. so anyone, feel free to call me. i love everyone and miss you all a bunch. i will try to continue to update every once in a while. hope everyone is doing great. i'm going swimming and to study now. ♥